a post for my few awesome readers

this one is for the people who have been reading my blog for awhile, and who have gotten to know some stuff about me through it. like it says at the bottom of the blog, this is kind of like my diary at times. i hope you continue to enjoy these small glimpses into my life.

and now a update:
well the last post i wrote about me and jen was this one. lot has happened since then.
she did fly here, and it was a amazing time together, with a hard goodbye.
and from there she started school and as a few of you know we planned a trip for me to fly out there to visit her, from the 11th - 21st.
oh and i need to add, after she was here, i felt like i wanted to marry her.
but through much prayer and talking with God, found out(after a little while) that the want to marry her was simply my own desire, and not God's desire. He has someone amazing for jen and for me. we're just not sure who yet.
and if any of you are getting the "aw i'm sorry mark" feeling, just let it go right now cause God has a plan for me, and for jen, and i'm really glad that both of us our dedicated to following God, and his plan, and not our own desires.(no matter where that takes us)
so a little while ago(a month or two) jen met a cool guy named joel. they hit it off pretty much right away, and have started dating. and we'll see where God leads that relationship as time goes on.
so a few weeks ago after much prayer, jen and i decided that the timing wasn't right for me to go out there and visit, and that we both felt much more peace in our hearts with this decision, so we canceled the trip.

so in closing.
for those who are wondering where jen and i stand now.
we are the best of friends, we talk often, about things happening in our lives, council each other, and help each other grow in our love for God.
everything jen and i ever had was built on a solid friendship, and when everything else washes away, that friendship will always remain. we're life long friends. and in a few years(best guess) i'll be like a proud brother and watch as she marries the amazing man God has for her.

till next time, have a beautiful life everyone, God loves you more then you can ever begin to comprehend. so smile.