6/2/08

So
I’m 22
Almost 23 (aug 21st, in case you were wondering)

I remember sometime awhile ago I told a friend, if I’m still living at home at 23 I need to seriously re-evaluate my life. Here I am, less than three months away, no where closer to being financially independent than I was when I said that. So I’m thinking maybe I should go ahead and start that re-evaluation.

I thought about going and getting a job, maybe somewhere like a music store, that would be cool, regular hours, regular income, around instruments all the time.
But now thinking about it again, how irresponsible would that be, I already have a list of things that I haven’t done, that need to be done, what kind of character would be to say to those people “sorry I haven’t done that for you yet, but hey I just got another job and I’m busy so it’s going to be even longer.” So in that way getting a ‘regular’ job would look responsible from one angle and irresponsible from another.

Hmmm…responsibility: the state or fact of being accountable or to blame for something.

The problem becomes clear, it’s me, my complete lack of being responsible, keeping my word in a timely manner. I can name several projects off the top of my head that should have been done months ago. How can I sanely expect higher levels of income, when my work habits are exactly the same as they’ve always been, which in essence comes down to “oil the squeaky wheel and as long as nothing is squeaking then it’s all good” the squeak usually being a email.

So, why am I posting this for the world to see, (possibly including clients past/present/future, and my boss.) the answer to that being accountability. When everyone knows your habits, everyone knows the reasons things are the way they are. And they know when to call you out and challenge what you’re doing.

So here’s what up, I need to change, I need to get my life on track, this involves going against the grain of deeply rooted habits, aka, not easy. But completely necessary if I want my life to expand beyond the 8 walls of my room(my room isn’t exactly square.) and making about 1k a month.

So, look for changes to start happening, if you don’t see anything, send me a email markATbymarkcollinsDOTcom, or contact me in any other way you have access to.